i guess you have to wonder how long it will take.
if you can open yourself that way again, and with who.
what will he be like? will he love me the same?
how hard will it be to let go. to trust someone.

sometimes you lay there with a tear in your eye.
you want to just let them know. but you cant.
not now. not ever.

drown your sorrows with another drink. just for now.
i no longer want to think.